Does anyone else ever feel overwhelmed with eating? I think I get anxious about eating...well, when I was in my twenties I became a vegetarian, but I had no knowledge of how to eat to get the right amount of calories etc., this was back in the mid 1990's when fat-free was the rage, and Susan Powter was seen left and right screaming 'Stop The Insanity!'. I think that era really messed people up as far as eating goes. As a result of my strict vegetarian diet I unfortunately 'almost' had an eating disorder. I was so hungry at times that I would totally binge out, but never purged, that's why I call it an 'almost' eating disorder. Well, any way those years were the toughest years of my life because I spiraled out of control with the binging and found it difficult to stop. Every time I would do it the guilt was terrible and I'd swear I'd never do it again, but I always did it again. Then one day I decided that what I was doing was absolutely crazy, I was about 27 years old, and by the grace of God I stopped doing it.
Fast forward to today....when my anxiety got to it's highest, during a very stressful time in my life, I lost a couple of pounds. During a routine check-up my doctor advised me to gain about 5 pounds, and I saw the dietician at her office. The dietician was pretty happy with how healthfully I eat, she just wanted me to eat more. Which I did, and gained about 3-4 pounds, but then when my Mom passed away all that hard work went to pot.
Anyway, I find myself very unsure when it comes to eating. I do eat healthy, but what I am unsure about is, how healthy is too healthy, and is it ok to eat dessert every night? How often is it ok to eat foods that are considered unhealthy?
Maybe this is not the right place to ask these questions, but I had a counselor once tell me eating disorders are anxiety driven. I'm sure that's what was going on with me back then. It probably started from my wanting to be perfect, and when I could not achieve perfection, the anxiety increased. And another part of it was wanting to control something since my life was out of control.
Anyway, any advice at all will be greatly appreciated. Thank You! :)