So I think the holiday stress comes out as health anxiety for me. It happens every year and I am learning to see the pattern and try to control it. I've been managing it all right but today my doctor called. It was simply because the prescription for my antidepressant expired so the pharmacy called them .....They just want me to come in before it's refilled, I think because there's a new doctor and she doesn't want to refill before seeing me herself. But somehow that just gets me going ... I'm nervous about meeting a new doctor, and about explaining my health anxiety without sounding insane. I have a major weight problem , which I am fully aware of and just haven't gotten a hold of yet. But I get worried with a new doctor about not being taken seriously, that i will appear as someone who doesn't care at all about my own health. And then the superstitious part of me is afraid that this visit is the universe trying to make sure I find out that I am very sick with something or other.
Ugh. I know how this all sounds. And I know what I have to do to get in control, guess I just wanted to vent to some people who know what I mean !!