Hi! New to the forums.
So I started Zoloft exactly 7 weeks ago. Started on half a tablet for two weeks and went to one full tablet every morning and have been on that for five weeks now.
So I've noticed a LOT of good things so far that I'm really happy about: I can drive now without being in a full blown panic and having my heart beating out of my chest- in fact I actually like driving now. (Crazy!!) I used to have REALLY bad anxiety-induced morning nausea every morning despite circumstances (though considerably worse on stressful days which even caused me to stay home "sick" on said days) that's, literally, completely gone now. Like, this is the first time in six years I haven't started dry heaving as soon as I woke up, so that's absolutely wonderful.
Basically, all the anxiety that used to plague me is either completely gone or considerably dampened.
The only problem is, I have really debilitating apathy now. First thing when I get up, all I want to do is sit around on my computer all day. I feel tired all the time and the only thing that seems to help is coffee, but if I drink too much I get anxious again (half a cup or a small cup seems to be my limit). It's like I REALLY have to pump myself up to do things and try and get excited about them like I used to. I tried taking zoloft at night a few times but all that seemed to do is work during the night and then wear off by the time I get up, leaving me anxious. I don't know how to describe it, but I just feel really bland. Like I'm not engaged with people like I used to be or interested in the things I used to be interested in. Or like, I am, but when I get outside of the "thinking about doing such-and-such a thing", I just feel really lethargic and like I just don't want to do it. Mild depression, maybe?
I talked to my doctor about it a couple days ago who told me to try taking it at night, which I did afterwards and it didn't seem to help much. Did I just not give my body time enough time to adjust to a new schedule? She also told me that if half a cup of coffee helped me perk up a little more, that that's perfectly acceptable, which I agreed with at the time, but now that I'm out of the office it's like- I don't want to depend on coffee for my passion/happiness? That feels manufactured somehow and yet ANOTHER thing to add to my list to get addicted to.
So what should I do? Should I continue on the Zoloft and give it more time (I've heard the 13-week mark is really where things get better for people) or should I consider another medication/treatment method?
(Also to be noted- this may or may NOT be the medication. I think it is in part, but at the same time I'm on my Winter Break from college and I always have a tendency to get a little bit depressed/lethargic around times of inactivity. The most notable thing about this whole thing is, I think, is my sudden decrease in intrinsic motivation on my part. Whereas before I used to be able to motivate myself to get off the computer and do something else that involved activity during vacation times, now it's like trying to run through syrup. It's just not working for me. But when it comes to school time and other people expecting things of me and actively socializing with friends, as long as I have that cup of coffee, I'm fine. So I'm not sure what to make of that....but it's like I have to WORK at being engaged and passionate whereas before it just came naturally to me. Help??)