See you all on the other side......and thanks!

[Pan]

Don’t you just hate those self important idiots who feel that they have to do an ‘I’m Leaving’ thread when they decide not to visit an internet forum anymore…..

Well, anyway, I’m leaving.

I want to say a big thanks to all those people who picked me up, patted me down and put me right back up there….special thanks go to Skires and W on that front.

The recent 10 days or so have been pretty rubbish for me as I’ve allowed my guard to drop at times and as a result some of my old faulty and negative thought patterns have started to return.  For the last 4 months or so I have been quite assured in myself that my problems where generated by my mind and that my fried central nervous system and GAD where conspiring against me.  The problem is I think I became somewhat arrogant with this knowledge and forgot that I had to put in the hard yards to get the necessary return.

I do like to visit here and even though I feel I have got over the worse of the Health Anxiety I honestly felt my intentions on visiting where good….the problem is by visiting you cannot but help rake over old ground and sometimes a tiny germ of misinformation etc can sneak its way in and cause problems.

Wannabefree always mentions that we are a work in progress and I think I may have assumed somewhat that I was the finished article regarding Health Anxiety….it has become apparent to me that this is not the case and that an environment like this is not the best place for me to finalise my recovery.

Over recent days I have got myself back on track and feel once again in a position where I am looking forward with optimism…..I just feel that I cannot afford to jeopardise that again.  My main problem with visiting here is that all the while I do it I align myself with the Health Anxiety and still see it as part of me….I need to take a step back from this and throw myself back into my life where big busted beauties, Xbox 360 games and cycling sites populated my favourites list rather than anxiety and health sites!

Anyway, waffle over….I’ll probably be back on tomorrow night but I hope I’m not if you know what I mean.  Yep, I hate those self absorbed people who compose leaving threads and I am now one myself….the funny thing is I’m not writing this for you, I’m writing it to me, probably just like every post I’ve made on here I’m writing it to myself and trying to convince myself….heck, I just have to stop doing that cause I know the truth and always bloody have done!

Good luck all.

ash

[sda]

Good for you Pan, I wish you all the best!  You have been very helpful and supportive of us on here.  You have the drive and knowledge to get better and I have no doubt that you won't be back on here in a day or so...maybe later on you can come by and let us know how you are though!  Thanks for your time, knowledge and understanding nature.  You will be missed! 

[reece]

pan- good luck to you.

i don't really think leaving an "i'm leaving" thread is self absorbed.  I actually did that a couple of months ago.
yep. i'm back. :)   But seriously, i know exactly how you feel. i have to be really careful of the threads i read so as not to start myself into another loop.  I get alot out of this board but, it is something that you do have to give up if you truly want to get back to normal.
I like to come here mostly to help the breast cancer scares.  I feel like I can actually provide some relief to those women, so I try to read mostly those type of threads in hopes that i can give back.
i also know that if my poop is green, i can come here and complain about it and not be judged!! 

anyway, like i said, i think it's nice to leave an "i'm leaving" message. I wanted to because I didn't want anyone to wonder where i'd gone, or why i wasn't responding to something or something like that. 

I hope to leave here one day soon again :)   but right now, this group got me through my damn colonoscopy and for that i'm grateful. 

I also hope to come here one day and share my success story of managing my anxiety to inspire others.

i hope you will do that when you feel the time is right.

take care and good luck. you will be missed

reece

[seleck05]

Again Pan thank you for all your help, truly. You will be missed. I echo the sentiment that hopefully someday soon you will be 100% recovered and be able to let us know how you are doing!! You have so much great insight, really recognize your problem(which is half the battle) and the desire/ ability to change yourself as well as a real gift at helping others. I have no doubt you are going to be fine.

[wannabfree]

Hi Pan! 

You will be greatly missed here, but I am so happy that you have made this decision. Your contribution, support, insight, and encouragement to those of us on the site has be invaluable. I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for your rational, logical and kind support you have given me. I know that if wasn't for post from you and Skires (and a few others), my resolve to recover from HA would be a lot harder. Thank you thank you thank you!   

Take care, and hope that you find great enjoyment frequenting your old favorite sites!   

[laa43]

Good luck and best wishes to you! Even though I am a relative newcomer, I have really enjoyed reading your posts and listening to your insight. You have  been very helpful. You will be missed!