My name is Daisy and I'm currently a 19 year old college student. I wanted to talk to some people and find people who share the same experiences that I'm having because my anxiety is difficult on me and my family.
It wasn't until I was age 17 when I became suddenly paranoid over my health, and checked in the doctor atleast 8 times in 2 months only to be told that I have no health concerns. (The left of my neck was swelling so I was worried about lymphoma everyday for atleast 3 months until I had a ultrasound + biopsy and been told that my lymph node was just hypersensitive...I've never had health concerns or have a medical/genetic history of health concerns) Currently I'm being concerned and anxious over invasive breast cancer (although I have NO genetic history of breast cancer, no smoking, nothing unhealthy. I have taken a mammogram at age 15 because I was concerned over breast cancer, and was told that I was fine then.) I've taken a mammogram and ultrasound again, but I am still worried and anxious and wanting to get a biopsy, although the doctors told me I am fine.
Because of the much stress and anxiety I have faced in the short 6 months, everyday since then has been terrible. Everything feels synthetic and I can't focus on everyday things without stopping and trying to remember that I'm here. I can't go outside of my home without feeling anxious and lightheaded and terrified that I will have an anxiety attack.. I have terrible feelings of falling (?) when I'm in my anxious state and I cannot sleep until 2-3 hours later when my anxiety wears out in which I can finally feel like the ground isn't diagonal..I have threw up numerous times because it made me feel at ease when I'm anxious.. I cannot convince myself at all that there is nothing wrong with me and that I am always convinced that I am to die soon... I have found ways to cope with death if the diagnosis is 100% so I have found some peace..
It has been a tough year for me so far... but hopefully I will be diagnosed with nothing/ early so I can be treated for my IBC or that I can come over my obsessive thoughts over my health.