Hello all. I am a 40 year old husband and father of 2 young children. I had a great life, am fit and very active. I have a wonderful marriage and am financially secure. Despite this, on Friday Sept 13, I suffered a panic attack completely out of the blue. My life has been turned upside ever since. It seems lie 24 hours a day I am suffering from some sort of symptom including depersonalization, derealization, panic, numb face and hands, nausea, dizziness, light headedness, blurred vision, fatigue, chills/tingling across my shoulders and back and more.
I was put on Klonopin, then Lexapro (Which I stopped taking). Nothing seems to help. I have been paying a fortune for CBT for several weeks now, and I am in fact breaking one of the rules by signing up here and reaching out. After my panic attack I believe I perpetuated the entire situation by reading several books and researching the situation to death. This situation has literally consumed my life. I have stopped all the "googling" and research and forum reading at the advice of my CBT therapist.. until tonight.
This has been the worst 3 months of my life. I went from a perfectly happy husband and father with great family and friends to a complete mess.
I feel these physical symptoms ALL day, all the time. I am desperately looking for someone who can relate to my story and has RECOVERED. I need a success story. I need to know there is hope. I need to know I will not be like this forever. I need to know I am on the right track with the CBT which only seems to preach "Let it Be", and "just accept the feelings".
I have been trying so hard to recover. Maybe too hard. My therapist says I will not recover until I stop trying to recover. Someone please give me some hope. Someone please direct me to someone like me who beat this.
I need hope.