Hello fellow anxiety sufferers,
I've been having a very, very bad month. My lung cancer fears are off the charts- so much so, I think I need to see a psych doctor or get hospitalized for psychiatric issues.
I'm 34 years old and I've smoked on and off since high school. I don't know why it's such a big struggle to stay completely quit. I suppose I suffer from tremendous guilt over smoking. I have never smoked a pack a day and mostly I've smoked socially. Currently I'm on the wagon for 7 months.
I've been having shoulder pain for a few years, probably some kind of damage like rotator cuff or impinged nerve. The doc says it clicks and prescribed some exercises. Still, I feared it was lung cancer. After researching all the symptoms of LC, I learned that back pain was also a hallmark symptom. Soon after I learned that, my back started hurting so much, like I was being stabbed. Then I developed a cough and SOB. I was sure this was it.
I went to a Pulmonologist who did a lung function test which came out normal.
I went to the ER to get an X-ray and a CT scan -- all clear. Blood oxygen is 100% and all my blood work is great. I should be reassured. But I'm not! I woke up this morning with weird eyesight, back pain is better but still there and a worsening cough. I realize that all the stress I've been under probably will make me sick. I'm so terrified!
I've been through this in the past with other diseases. When I was younger, I was convinced I had HIV. I convinced myself I had tonsil cancer. I'm now wondering if I'm actually hallucinating all these symptoms. I'm really unable to live my life anymore because of this anxiety.
Thanks for reading!