I wanna taper down on my klonopin using the Ashton method but I'm terrified of everything about it, I could frigin cry right now I feel like I'm gonna be stuck on this drug after reading the horror stories about the withdrawal.
Then stop reading them. The horror stories are mostly written by people who don't know what they write about, and I include Ashton in that. She is a very flawed doctor. Most people writing in benzodiazepine (BZD) withdrawal groups can't tell the difference between anxiety and withdrawal, IME. They also tend to have some very weird ideas about how to withdraw often involving a number of defined steps which must be followed exactly with difficulties in withdrawing then being proof you didn't follow them properly. Ideas that they didn't get from Ashton, BTW. They also seem to be very hung up about receptors for some reason.
Millions of epileptics were switched from Klonopin to the newer non BZD anti seizure meds a few decades ago with minimal drama even though 10mg/day would be about the standard dose and 20mg/day isn't rare. Withdrawal is almost a non issue in epilepsy support groups.
Also why do you want to taper off it now when you're about to reduce your Paxil dose before switching to Effexor? It would be the very worst time to begin tapering of Klonopin, IMHO.
I'm nervous to take Valium and klonopin together and how am I suppose to evenly cut a 1mg pill I'm half every time.
Why are you taking both? The point of the 'Ashton method' is to replace
Klonopin with Valium and to then wean off the Valium.
Pharmacies sell pill-cutters which make cutting pills both more accurate and less bloody than using a knife.