You might have seen my struggles since the beginning of November with MS scare. It has been a long road, changed me as a person. I went from being very happy and active to a hermit with left leg tingling, weakness, jolts, facial tingling, eye twitching, social anxiety and vision issues like brain fog and dizziness/tunnel vision.
It shouldn't come as a surprise really. I manifested some pretty horrible physical sensation 2 years ago when I was convinced I had colon cancer. Being that was my really big first blow up HA scare once I had a colonoscopy and the issue went away I discounted that I had an issue. This time around, I forgot how HA felt so I fought it as well thinking no way could anxiety and stress do this to me.
Well, my Brain MRI came back all clean. My lumbar spine came back showing I had a pinched nerve on my right leg which actually never hurts, its my left leg. That is comical...my GP said thats not uncommon for an MRI to show an issue the patient doesn't know about.
So what now? I am going to try and relax. I am not going to question the fact that the MRI was without contrast or if I need a cervical MRI. My GP said that it would be so unlikely that I had MS after passing my neuro tests with flying colors, plus a visit to a Neuro doc, plus a good MRI even without contract.
I went to therapy last night for the first time. Th therapist explain how we all have two sides to our personality. The everyday side which takes in all the normal day to day items and is how you view the world on any given day. Then there is the subconscious side where we store the old memories and instructions on how to operate like walking.
After listing out my past childhood and life I realized how imperfect it really was. The theory is that there is something in my past that I have repressed and never dealt with properly. Normally, my everyday side can operate and handle the stress of daily life but the MS anxiety on top of it was too much and it was unable to keep the repressed stress stuffed down. So repressed feelings have come to the surface and overlayed on top of my everyday self. I have to figure out what the issues are that I need to accept so they will go away.
He says he sees it often so we shall see how this goes. I hope any of you struggling with an MS scare take some comfort in this. Your mind can cause all these symptoms. I don't know if this will lead to a curb in my anxiety or maybe even a perm fix to my anxiety but I know I am going to work on reducing stress in my life, getting closer to God.
Thanks for everyones help.