I'm new to this site and thought I'd give this a shot just to get other people's perspectives on my situation.
I am a 23 y/o female who has always been somewhat of a worry-er. I've usually always had a nervous stomach, but not to the point where it was ever a problem.
Short backstory: I just recently began my first ever relationship with this guy who is so amazing, treats me wonderfully and is everything I've ever wanted in someone. We met 3 years ago, and we liked eachother then, but it never amounted to much, and now he is back in the picture which I couldn't be happier about. We started dating the beginning of November, and were seeing each other/got back into contact at the end of September. During us meeting again, and even us beginning to date, never once did I feel anxiety. I was nervous sometimes to see him, but these were happy nerves, nothing alarming.
On November 20th, 3 weeks after we officially started dating, I went to my local walk in clinic and was prescribed Biaxin XL because of phlegm in my chest & I suppose the doctor thought it was a chest infection. 4 days after the medicine kicked in, I had my first full blown panic attack. I got very hot, nauseous, and felt an intense amount of fear. I do not know why for the life of me, but I attached this fear to my ever so loving boyfriend, and ever since then it has created anxiety in my relationship with him. I keep doubting my feelings for him, even though when I am with him, I am affectionate towards him. I remember right before the attack I asked myself: "Do I even like him?" "What if I don't?" Keep in mind I was with him 12 hours prior, and I remember getting home texting him telling him I already missed him before the morning of this disaster happened. This worry lasted for 2 weeks, until one day I was sitting down, looked up the adverse side effects of Biaxin XL, and found out it causes anxiety.
Ever since this event, when I am with my boyfriend, even though I want to be with him, and we're affectionate and everything looks fine, something does not feel right in my body. I look at him and can't help but to feel anxious because I do not know what to feel with him anymore and it's driving me crazy. I want to feel how I did with him before this all happened. He has never done anything wrong to me, never said anything out of the ordinary in order for me to wake up 12 hours later and question our relationship. He is the best man, and even though this is my first relationship, I know I picked him for a hell of a good reason. I can't bare to let him go, and I keep thinking what if I have to break up with him? Which makes me more anxious because I do not at all want that, but I can't help but to think that because when I am with him I do not feel secure/sure about myself as I was before this anxiety happened. He's incredibly supportive, but I want to go back to normal where I was enjoying myself with him. Any thoughts would be soooo greatly appreciated.