My name is Aurora, I'm 31 and have been dealing with anxiety attacks since I was in my teens.
Long story short - I became pregnant in August of last year and although we were extremely excited on the outside, I was internally frightened as I have a HUGE fear of vomiting, and a history of anxiety. The pregnancy was planned and I was prepared to deal with whatever came my way. Needless to say, I went into a deep depression within weeks after finding out, I was crying constantly, couldn't eat, barely slept, I felt like I was falling apart. My OB/GYN suggested starting me on Zoloft as it was considered the "safest" during pregnancy. It took me a few weeks to start it at 25mgs and after about a month I bumped up to 50mg and once the morning sickness passed I felt great.
I had my daughter in March and only had a few days of "baby blues" but I remained on the Zoloft during breast feeding which I weaned around 6 months. I am still taking the Zoloft.
However, on Saturday I had a small anxiety attack out of nowhere (it had been 1+ years since I experienced it) and thought I got through it but it happened again on Sunday, then again on Monday. Monday was pretty bad, I get uncontrollable shakes when I have these attacks and I was shaking on/off all day Monday. Tuesday morning I woke up in a state of panic and was shaking all morning, I could barely eat breakfast although I was starving. I went to work and felt better. I went to my Primary Tuesday afternoon and she prescribed me Xanax to take as needed to control the attacks, and sent me for a bunch of blood work.
Wednesday I woke up again in a state of panic, could barely eat breakfast. Took a Xanax and it helped a little bit - by the time I got to work I felt a lot better and for the rest of the day I was 90% better!
However, again this morning I woke up in a state of panic. My whole body is/was shaking, I had to keep taking deep breaths or I felt like I would hyperventilate, I felt like I had to keep bouncing my leg, like I had to get out of bed and pace, cry, etc.
I have a script for Klonopin from before I was pregnant and I have like 3 pills left, so I took a 1/2 since I felt my attack was pretty severe. I took a 1/2 of a .50mg about 20 min ago and I still don't feel better.
I'm at a loss, I'm not sure what to do. It seems like mornings are the absolute worse.