Hi everyone! Here to update you all on my recovery. The med cocktail I'm on right now is 20mg prozac, klonopin .5mg x2 a day, and trazodone 100mg at night. and let me tell you, i feel completely different than I did a year ago. It is amazing how I feel, it's just I feel so...normal? I would not consider myself agoraphobic anymore, and I would say my anxiety levels are extremely low, just normal anxiety levels that most people have. No constant worrying, no fear of leaving my house because something bad will happen, no more obsessing over my blood sugar, it's all gone. I feel like my true old self. Social, talkative, engaging, excited, interested in life. My depression has almost disappeared, but it still lingers, though I have only been on the therapeutic dose of prozac for 4 weeks, so I am sure it will get even better. But I know it's different because when I wake up in the morning, I actually feel AWAKE and I am in a good/pleasant mood, looking forward to the day! Even my biggest triggers, which is when I am home alone all day, I feel fine. I don't feel sad, alone, suicidal, I simply feel bored in those situations now. Still do have my crying episodes, but I am pretty emotional is there is still stress in my life. And the trazodone, while admittedly not so amazing, it helps me to unwind so much at night and actually sleep and stay asleep through the night. It does take a while to kick in for me, 2 hours, but when it does I feel sedated in a way different from benzos, or antihistamines. It is just a calm gentle sleepiness, and I am ready for bed. No anxiety or depression during bedtime that kept me up all night. Overall, I would say I am about 85-90% recovered, or in remission you could say. I was so happy that I went to a psychiatrist who was understanding and gentle with me. To sum it up: meds have increased my quality of life greatly, from having 0 quality of life to actually feeling good, normal. I will still keep you all up to date in case anything happens, but I am going to start working on my life now that I am able to. Also going to see a counselor. I hope everyone finds the peace that I am just beginning to find. Good luck to everyone out there.