My aunt was diagnosed Lung Cancer (stage 2). she was a cigarette smoker, and now she had cancer! Of course at first i was shocked about her diagnosis and though this aunt of mine was one of my closest aunt. She was fun and very kind, she used to give me money during Christmas when i was a kid (She said doesn't have time to buy me presents, so that i can choose whatever i want to buy). She also always prepare and plans for us for having a family/relatives out of town vacations.
So here's the thing.. When i heard about her diagnosis, i felt like my Health Anxiety gone worse! i was a bit shaky and nervous! I felt bad for her and for myself! Especially i had a fear of CANCER!!! (hodgkin's lymphoma, leukemia, bone cancer, brain tumor) *such a hypochondriac!* but i wasn't concerned of Lung Cancer for myself. Well i used to smoke (back in 2010-2011) but in 2012 to present; rarely and moderately. (I came to the point during 2012, smoking isn't fun at all. i hate the smell of it.) So should i really quit smoking now? I mean should i stop smoking even if it's just moderately? I am not a heavy smoker myself but my aunt was a heavy smoker (she always consumed 1 pack of filter cigarette's a day, as far as i remember when i see her smoking during my childhood years.)
And oh my god! My elder sister was a heavy smoker too, compare to me! (even though i am mad at her, i still worry about her future health because she had a child for god sake!) And the husband of my elder sister is quite a heavy smoker too. I am worried about their child.
I feel so anxious and down to earth.