I think this is the only place where I can talk about this in a "this is so normal to talk about"-way.
So here we go;
Since I was little, stress has always caused problems with my belly. Most of the times just some pain. But like some people get head aches because they stress, I get belly aches.
Last year, around the anniversary of my beloved horses dead, I started to bloat. I experienced some pressure and pain, and didn't really understand why. I had no problems going to the toilet. So I never ever thought it could be constipation.
My doctor prescribed me some pills that had to relax the muscles around my colon. They didn't work, so he ordered an x-ray of my abdomen and blood works. My blood was absolutely perfect, but my x-ray showed heavy constipation. He prescribed me molaxole (an European brand of osmotic laxatives). I had to take it three times a day. Within a few weeks, my problems were completely gone.
Two months ago, the whole thing started again. But this time, with a weird feeling on the right of my belly button (below the ribs). It was like there was a ball or a fist inside my abdomen, pushing my belly from inside out. When I didn't touch my belly, it would really feel like there was a huge "object" inside. But looking down I didn't see the difference between the left and the right side of my abdomen, and when I try to feel if something is "hiding" inside, I don't feel anything weird.
So I made an appointment with the other doctor in the practice, because the first one just didn't explain anything he did or prescribed.
This doctor was very helpful. Totally understanding about my anxiety. He examined my belly and told me everything felt perfectly normal, and that it was not at all a problem to wait for a week or two to see if it would go away.
Well, it didn't. So I went back to him. He told me he was sure it was stress related, explained about why I wasn't a good candidate for colon cancer ;) and told me he liked to order an x-ray and blood works so I would be able to relax. This was 4 weeks ago. I went to the hospital immediately for the x-ray and blood works (where on this planet can you visit a doctor and get your blood drawn and x-ray taken within 2 hours, love it) and 2 days later my doc called me to confirm that I was indeed constipated and that my blood was perfect again. He told me to take up to 4 glasses of molaxole a day until the pressure was off and then slowly lower the dose. I asked him if I had anything to worry about and he told me; "no, on the contrary!"
So within a day, the pressure almost completely disappeared and I started to feel better. The anxiety finally gone.
But now, 3 weeks later, I feel that pressure again. I almost completely stopped taking the molaxole last week. Going back to one dose every two days, but I'm having trouble accepting that I might be constipated again because I lowered the dose too soon.
I hate this weird feeling. When I wake up at night and in the morning it isn't there, at all, but within ten minutes after waking up I start feeling it again, making me believe that my mind and body are playing anxiety tricks on me again.
Cancer is very rare in our family and I really can't name anyone that had colon cancer. Liver problems are also extremely rare (and that's almost funny, because my family members looooove their drinks, and I never drink alcohol). So why the heck am I still worrying?
Anyone here who experienced that same feeling? Any idea what it is? My realistic side thinks the muscles around my colon are really overworked and sore. Grumbl. Stupid anxiety.