Hello! It was a nice day for me, but now, i have those bad thoughts in my head. Sorry if my english is bad, i hope you understand. I went out with two of my friends. As usually, we discused about relathionships. One of them had some problem with her boyfriend and now she can't trust him. Anyway, her relationship resembles mine from several points of view and now i feel very anxious because i am scared that my boyfriend will do the same things that her boyfriend did, even if i know that my boyfriend loves me very much. I am a very jealous person and i make in my head lots of scenarios and now i think i have an anxiety attack, because i'm felling very bad. I am with my boyfriend for six years and i love him so much. He is everything for me and when i imagine my life without him I start feeling very,very sad, like i have no future without him. Then, another problem was that we talk about our parents and how much we love them. And then again, i start feeling anxious at the thought that my dear parents won't be here, with me, one day. And again, i wonder why we should suffer so much and how i could live without the persons i love so much. Because i think that my life will be so empty without them. I can't get rid of these stupid thoughts, my heart is beating so fast, my head hurts, and i just want to lay in my bed and cry. Because i don't know anything about the future, i don't know if my parents will be ok in five years, for example, or if my boyfriend will love me in two years for now. I'm feeling so insecure, i am so afraid, i don't know what to do. I went to the psychologist two months but there was no change. Any advice for me? What can i do to be more positive? I don;t know if i am dependent on the persons i love (my parents and my boyfriend), but i am terrifed at the thoughts that one day they won't be here, we won't talk at the phone, we won't have dinner together. My friends told me that they had fears too, but they didn't meditate so much and when it would happend, then they would worry, not in the present. Sorry again for my english. Thank you very,very much!