I can't imagine what it must be like to be a "normal" person and not live in constant fear and worry. My anxiety is even worse now, and was made worse by a doctors appointment yesterday. I've been having extremely achey elbows lately, which, of course, I attribute to my heart. Yesterday I had to get my klonopin prescription refilled (which I'm trying to get off of, it doesn't really help me and now that we don't have insurance it's hard for me to get). I've been using a local urgent care place because it's the cheapest place in town for an office visit. The lady I saw last time told me it was fine to come there for refills. Well the guy I saw yesterday said this is the last time they'll do it because they aren't the kind of place that does maintenance medication and I need to see a family doctor. When I mentioned that the lady last time said it was fine he said she didn't work there anymore. So now I have to figure out how to get my prescription refilled after 30 days. Not having it gives me horrible withdrawals, which is why it's taken me months to get down from 3 a day to 2 a day. The doctor then went on to tell me how I should just go online and look up how to deal with panic attacks. He was just so insensitive. I've been dealing with this for years. I've tried so many medications, so many therapists....and his answer is to google it! So THEN I bring up my elbow pain. After describing it he said that it sounded like referred pain that could be from my neck, back, stomach....or any other organ in that area. Of course my anxiety brain says well then it MUST be my HEART!
So now ever since then I've had a pain coming and going in my left shoulder, up near my neck. It sticks around for a few hours and then goes away (just like my elbow pain).
Now would be a good time to mention that I do have stomach problems. I've been burping a lot, I feel sick often, I get heartburn....so this probably is all stemming from a stomach problem. In the past I've had gastritis, and I can't help but think I might have an ulcer or something.
So I'm 99.9% sure that my symptoms are from a stomach issue (which I'm dealing with through diet and antacids) mixed with anxiety, but the darn .1% of WHAT IF it's my heart has taken over, and I'm sitting here, burping with shoulder pain and now some tooth pain, wondering if I should be seeing emergency medical care. And it doesn't help that I've read that burping can be a heart attack sign! But if I were a normal person I'd probably blow off all the "weird symptoms" and would hardly notice them, and when I did just dismiss them as being nothing major and go on with my life instead of living in crippling fear.