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OH what it must be like to be normal!
« on: December 04, 2013, 11:04:31 AM »
I can't imagine what it must be like to be a "normal" person and not live in constant fear and worry.  My anxiety is even worse now, and was made worse by a doctors appointment yesterday.  I've been having extremely achey elbows lately, which, of course, I attribute to my heart.  Yesterday I had to get my klonopin prescription refilled (which I'm trying to get off of, it doesn't really help me and now that we don't have insurance it's hard for me to get).  I've been using a local urgent care place because it's the cheapest place in town for an office visit.  The lady I saw last time told me it was fine to come there for refills.  Well the guy I saw yesterday said this is the last time they'll do it because they aren't the kind of place that does maintenance medication and I need to see a family doctor.  When I mentioned that the lady last time said it was fine he said she didn't work there anymore.  So now I have to figure out how to get my prescription refilled after 30 days.  Not having it gives me horrible withdrawals, which is why it's taken me months to get down from 3 a day to 2 a day.  The doctor then went on to tell me how I should just go online and look up how to deal with panic attacks.  He was just so insensitive.  I've been dealing with this for years.  I've tried so many medications, so many therapists....and his answer is to google it!  So THEN I bring up my elbow pain.  After describing it he said that it sounded like referred pain that could be from my neck, back, stomach....or any other organ in that area.  Of course my anxiety brain says well then it MUST be my HEART! 

So now ever since then I've had a pain coming and going in my left shoulder, up near my neck.  It sticks around for a few hours and then goes away (just like my elbow pain). 

Now would be a good time to mention that I do have stomach problems.  I've been burping a lot, I feel sick often, I get heartburn....so this probably is all stemming from a stomach problem.   In the past I've had gastritis, and I can't help but think I might have an ulcer or something. 

So I'm 99.9% sure that my symptoms are from a stomach issue (which I'm dealing with through diet and antacids) mixed with anxiety, but the darn .1% of WHAT IF it's my heart has taken over, and I'm sitting here, burping with shoulder pain and now some tooth pain, wondering if I should be seeing emergency medical care.  And it doesn't help that I've read that burping can be a heart attack sign!  But if I were a normal person I'd probably blow off all the "weird symptoms" and would hardly notice them, and when I did just dismiss them as being nothing major and go on with my life instead of living in crippling fear.
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Re: OH what it must be like to be normal!
« Reply #1 on: December 04, 2013, 11:14:31 AM »
I can't imagine what it must be like to be a "normal" person and not live in constant fear and worry.  My anxiety is even worse now, and was made worse by a doctors appointment yesterday.  I've been having extremely achey elbows lately, which, of course, I attribute to my heart.

Funnily enough I would attribute them to the illness I have decided I have too and it certainly isn't to do with my heart :D How, may I ask, did seeing your doctor make you anxiety worse?

So I'm 99.9% sure that my symptoms are from a stomach issue (which I'm dealing with through diet and antacids) mixed with anxiety, but the darn .1% of WHAT IF it's my heart has taken over, and I'm sitting here, burping with shoulder pain and now some tooth pain, wondering if I should be seeing emergency medical care.  And it doesn't help that I've read that burping can be a heart attack sign!  But if I were a normal person I'd probably blow off all the "weird symptoms" and would hardly notice them, and when I did just dismiss them as being nothing major and go on with my life instead of living in crippling fear.

I have had periods of being burpy too. Not really sure what caused it but it seemed to just fade away.

I really don't think you should rush to emergency care, the help that such services offer is generally for immediate problems so I am not sure what they could offer you that a thorough and in-depth approach taken through GP or PCP and then specialist could not, other than immediacy.

Have you discussed your anxiety with the doctor at all? It is hard to do sometimes but look at it this way. if you are 99% sure it is anxiety then you need to work on the basis of getting that treated rather than having your heart looked at. After all, the chances are in your favour that you will feel better with that approach!
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Re: OH what it must be like to be normal!
« Reply #2 on: December 04, 2013, 11:21:18 AM »
Apologies, I read from you posts that you have gone down that avenue sorry.
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Re: OH what it must be like to be normal!
« Reply #3 on: December 04, 2013, 11:24:04 AM »
Isn't it funny how the same symptoms mean different things to everyone depending on their specific fears?

I've discussed this with a plethora of doctors and therapists over the last few years.  Currently I have no insurance, nor any extra money, so I'm having to get by with urgent cares (because the one here only charges $88 for a visit) and free stuff I find on the internet.  I try to focus on relaxing as much as possible and listen to lots of relaxation sequences, but I still don't have it under control.  I've tried so many medications for different lengths of times without any luck.  The most promising one for me was Zoloft, but I was breaking out in hives and my doctor was afraid it was an allergic reaction and made me stop. 

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