So, anxiety for me started about two years ago in high school. I wasn't actually even aware of this so called anxiety until early last year.
For about a year (Aug2011>May2012) I had seen the odd light flash in my vision - this followed with random colour blobs for split seconds, but those were extremely rare. However being a male I of course ignored it. Not entirely nieve since I'm short sighted, I had regular eye check ups. I just maybe avoided the discussion of light flashes when I got the standard retina scans back (all healthy). This was about half way between me noticing those flashes. As the months went on I started to worry about them more and headed to good old google. First couple results were about a retina detachment and the fact of it causing blindness. I immediately closed the webpage and ignored it until May of this year. When I then knew I had to speak to my family about it as the flashes became more current. We booked into the eye doctors for two days later. At this point I was complete, and utterly convinced I had retina issues. To the point of talking to my mum about the surgeries they do for it in the waiting room. After about every test under the sun - the doctor shows me both scans... NOTHING!! She couldn't see absolutely anything. It looked identical to the scan I had the year before. But- my eye pressure was a little high at 27 in my right eye. So I was referred to an optimologist. But isn't that crazy? I walked in that office thinking I knew I'd be in surgery the following day...
So we go to the specialist and he dilates my eyes, looks at my retinas again and check pressure with this blue light. He said I shouldn't worry, but they're going to monitor me every six months. The following week I had this pretty cool scan done in both eyes to measure my cornea and take pictures of my optic nerves. He said I'd get a call if anything was wrong. I never heard nothing so I guess it was all fine! I actually have my check up just before Christmas. Little nervous since I know high pressure has zero symptoms, so I'm none the wiser on what's happening back there - but praying for the best!
But still, nearly six months later with a few eye symptoms left stunned. I still have eye flashes, had floaters growing up (still do), odd quick visual snow when going from light to pitch black rooms/surfaces. Also something I'm unable to find any information on, and that's this very weird halo type thing on the corner of my vision. I can only see it if I look the furthest way left/right and move my head at the same time. Move my eyeballs the tiniest away and cannot see the dark halo shadow anymore. No idea how long it's been there before discovering it late September whilst in bed looking to the very corner of my vision. I wear black Ray-Bans that are quite thick - so impossible to see with my glasses on.
But this is it, why are my anxiety symptoms visually related? I can be so busy and not even notice a flash or for a week or so. I've NEVER, EVER seen a flash of light when I'm flying (I'm a private pilot) and I honestly notice things so much more indoors. When I get bored and not a lot on my mind - I start thinking I have vision issues again. Get busy and forget about it - then back to worrying. I'm still trying to control my way of thinking but sometimes it's harder than other times. I'd say now I'm in that 'bored' or not so much going on and worrying about more than I should state of mind. A month ago I was too busy to think about I am or might be seeing.
Should I mention I still have flashes and about that weird halo shadow I can make myself see if I look right to the corner, at my eye pressure check up next month?