I had a colonoscopy in March after another time I was bleeding and panicked and went to the er. I was diagnosed with internal hemorrhoids and colitis at the time and took antibiotics for the colitis. I am still bleeding on and off but it seems like bad tonight and I am in a panic. There are drops of blood in the water when I have a bowel movement and blood on my stool and of course when I wipe. But its only like every other time I go, one time I will go and its fine and the next blood. It is bright red blood and always has been and I am sure I am bleeding to death or have cancer now. I have pain and itching in my anus and sometimes it feels pressure or like something is going to come out. I am 26 years old, 5'2 and a little over 270 lbs so I know my weight is probably a factor. I don't exercise, I sit at my computer or drafting table all day. I eat a terrible diet and live on soda, I recently started drinking diet soda again to try to lose weight. I rarely drink anything but soda and eat a lot of cheese, pizza, potato skins, those are my favorite foods. I have taken my nightly klonopin dose and trying to convince myself I'm not dying. I am under great stress from the loss of my dog I had for 10 years, my mother is being away from home a lot since she broke up with her boyfriend. She gets frustrated with me because I rely on her too much for comfort and she says I am a grown woman which I am. I just get so scared, I am afraid I will never get to meet my girlfriend who lives out of state, die and go to Hell because I have much guilt in my life. I am terrified to die. I was diagnosed with panic disorder, depression, agoraphobia (I was hospitalized overnight in March, I don't want to go back to the hospital I can't handle it I cried the whole time), and possibly Aspergers Syndrome. I am on 2 mg klonopin, 40 mg prozac, 1500 mg metformin, 50mg spironolactone. The last ones are for Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I apologize for this ramble I don't know what else to do as I can't contact anyone else right now so late. I keep thinking I have pain in my intestines and dizzy but its probably panic, I look up symptoms of everything and I start to have them. Thank you.