I have always had a fear of holes that are in patterns and clustered. Especially on skin. Well unfortunately I ran across a picture on 0409 of a girl that had holes in her arms and knees and although it is photo shopped it looked so disgusting it started to make my skin crawl and my heart flutter and I just got really anxious.
I have bad anxiety to begin with, and I have ocd... so since then I've been searching "Trypophobia" images and Its like I cannot help but to search them although it drives me crazy. So I finally stop searching them, but images are still stuck in my head and I cannot stop thinking about it. It's been 3 hours now. Like I said, I have always been freaked out by a cluster of holes... but I am always able to get it out my brain. However, for some reason I became obsessed with this after learning the name "Trypophobia".
I keep going around the house scratching my nails in the carpet because I am so freaked out by those images. What else makes it worse is that, I can't sleep without thinking about the holes on someone skin. It's like images are pacing through my head of this. The bad thing is... I don't know when I am going to find the time to stop thinking and obsessing over this because all I do is sit to myself everyday on the computer. I am in the process of trying to move and start college, but in the meantime I have to sit around the house and get on the computer with nothing else to occupy my mind with. It's like these images and thoughts of holes like (lotus holes, beehives, holes in skin which is photoshopped) is haunting me and they wont go away. I feel like crying.
All I do all day is get on the computer because there is nothing else to do. I can't keep busy and my mind cursed me out badly when I told her about it. I suffer from bad anxiety to begin with... and my family are all toxic.
How do I get these images out my mind.. and will this bother me forever. I promise to never look at the images again, but now since I seen them. I feel scarred.
Please help out and let me know you all understand... have no other source to vent to. Thank u all.