This is going to sound really crazy. I went in for my annual check up on Friday. The doctor does the thing where he feels around for glands. He feels my elbow which I thought strange. Anyway, he does the exam, EKG, blood etc and I leave.
As soon as I get home I google elbow and sure enough there are lymph nodes there. I feel where he felt and BAM!!! There is a clearly palpable marble sized ball that is freely mobile there. I couldn't believe I never felt that before. I move to the other elbow and there is one there too, but smaller and not as noticeable. Of course I begin to google all this and sure enough I learn that the lymph nodes in the elbow should NOT be palpable at all. In other words, you should not be able to feel them. Well now my anxiety is ramping up. I keep reading that when they are enlarged is a very strong indicator of disease. Namely HIV, TB or Lymphoma. I know I don't have HIV and TB because I donate blood every 3 months and I would have been told if I tested positive. Lymphoma. Hmmmm. I do get these occasional night sweats. Not drenching, but I do wake up kind of sweaty at times. I have also been feeling achy and tired a lot lately. I keep feeling that marble sized ball and keep thinking something MUST be wrong and this should not be there. Those nodes drain the hand and forearm so its unlikely I have an infection on my hand without knowing. although I am a chronic nail biter. I spent the entire weekend on the lymphoma support message boards. As I lay here I can actually sense the nodes in my neck and shoulder twinging a little. I do feel sore there from time to time. I always thought it was muscular. I am really trying hard to resist feeling around my neck and jaw because I know I will find something there. The funny thing is I had a complete physical on Friday and he felt my glands!!! But my doctor knows me all too well and he knows that if he mentioned anything at all about a swollen elbow lymph node I would freak out. Plus he is the type of doctor that will disregard one or two swollen nodes as being inconsequential in the absence of other symptoms. I would much rather have a biopsy and get it over with. Or maybe he is just waiting for the good results to come back in before saying anything. I also read that protein in the urine is a sign of lymphoma. I do have frothy urine. Ugh this is going to be a stressful week.
Sorry to ramble.