I'm 23 female from Oregon. I'm a mentor for young children in a mental health outpatient program. I'm currently applying for graduate school to get a Master's Degree in Social Work to become a therapist.
Here's the twist: I've suffered with GAD, mild OCD for years. I've recently been diagnosed with Dysthymic Disorder. During college, I struggled with panic attacks and from what I've researched, agoraphobia. I see a psychologist once a month to talk about my anxiety, but I think I need to start going more. I've been on xanax in the past, but now my doctor gives me citalopram to try and manage my anxiety. Lately, it has not been working. Now when I calm myself down from huge anxiety attacks, I have to take xanax.
I struggle with the idea of me wanting to become a therapist. I've worked clinically with youth for about a year now. They have everything from substance abuse issues, autism, anxiety, depression, self mutiliation, you name it. Each of them struggle with depression and anxiety. It's funny that I can't practice what I preach for myself when I'm in a low state. I feel like why would I have the audacity to be a therapist when I struggle so much with my mental health? At the same time, a therapist needs to be able to relate with their clients. Like, the best alcohol and drug therapists are the one's who've recovered from addictions themselves.
Regardless, I've struggled with anxiety for years. Lots of people around me don't know how to comfort me, so I find support through online networks like these. I don't dare let anyone know at my work when I'm having an anxiety attack or am depressed, incase of the stigma.
Anyhow, that's me (: