Glad you joined us . . . it is a great place to get your thoughts in writing and that helps . . . sometimes we get inwardly focused and that feeds the anxiety . . . to be able to express ourselves gives physicality to the anxiety and then we can start the process to recovery . . . it is a process and although there are many here to support you in the process, you are the one to take the first steps . . . it is difficult because anxiety is not well understood by those who have never experienced it . . . . sometimes they think they are helping by dismissing it as being "all in our heads" and yes, it is in our heads, but that does not make it have any less of an impact . . . even the most well intentioned of folks if they have not had the experience are unable to understand the frustration . . .
For me, my triggers were buried deep . . . I could not pinpoint them but then I was always good at suppressing anything that I did not want to deal with . . . perhaps there was or is something trying to grab your attention through anxiety . . . . a counselor may help you unravel that . . . . you may have to look at a couple of them until you get one that aligns with your needs . . .that's okay . . . you are shopping for a service and you deserve to purchase, if you will, the talent that you need . . . but remember whether you do it by yourself or with a counselor, it is a process and it takes time . . .
As Cuchculan said, is there a friend or two in whom you can confide? Are you working with a counselor? Any community-based support groups in your area? You can be "fixed", but you are the one who needs to do the repairs, better under the guidance of a professional . . . please know that we will support you to the very best of our abilities so come here often . . . sometimes the more we write, the better we uncover our triggers and the better positioned we are to resolve them . . .
Look, it is a frustrating, disappointing, ugly disease that few appreciate until it happens to them . . . but that does not mean that you cannot deal with it as you would any other disease . . . it is a day by day and sometimes minute by minute process . . . look at your lifestyle, diet, exercise (can just be gradual build up to walking), forcing yourself to be alone even if just for a few minutes every day, meditation, and, of course coming here as often as you would like . . . there is nothing you can tell us so long as you want to that we will find unusual . . .we all experience anxiety in different ways because we are individuals with different experiences, but we all know the havoc that anxiety can impart but also the joys at the little successes that happen on the way to recovery . . .take care, kc