Hello, I am new to the site. I am 33 years old and have never had anxiety problems before. 2 months ago I started having problems, I had a few panic attacks and it was terrible. I also had when everyone told me was anxiety. My doctor gave me anxiety meds to take when I was having and "attack". I tried Valium and that didn't help, it made me tired and kind of loopy for about 20min and then nothing. Next I tried Ativan and that seemed to make things worse! My heart started pounding when I took it (no heart things before the med) and the feeling of not being able to breathe continued. So I gave up on meds. I feel like it must not be anxiety if anxiety meds don't work and even make it worse. Anyway, after 2 weeks of it being really bad the last 6 or so weeks have been better, but it still sucks. I just feel like I am not getting enough air 24/7. Not like I am gasping for breath or anything, it just feels like every breath I take is not filling me with oxygen. Does that make any sense? When I felt like that at the ER (went because of the bad panic attack) they said that my oxygen was 100%. So I am very confused if there is a real (probably rare since I seem to be the queen of odd medical problems) physical problem or if I simply have anxiety.
All I know is I can't stand it anymore. On top of feeling like I can't get enough air I can't sleep well. It takes me a long time to fall asleep, mainly because I am thinking so much about my breathing and making sure I am taking deep breaths through my nose and trying not to get myself worked up. Then I wake up a few times in the night with the same problems. So I am exhausted. Other than the breathing I am also having issues with thoughts of what is the point? What is the point of life? Every time I look at old people I start getting worse symptoms and just think about how pointless it is here, I mean I'm just going to die. It is terrible.
At work the symptoms aren't as bad, or I seem to be able to ignore them more when I am busy. When I get home it is so much worse. I dread coming home and knowing that bedtime will be a struggle. I am turning into a terrible mom and wife.
Anyway, does this sound like anxiety? If so why won't anxiety meds help? Why would they make them worse? Any ideas? Thanks!!