I need help, do I have early stage or sign of that illnes or is this due to strong anxiety?
I was stupid enough to read symptoms about it last night,and now I freak out because it is said that these are sympthoms :
- Anxiety , I have it.
- Sitting at the computer in my room listening to music long time - I do it , my friends are busy or my feamle frineds gett married so I spend in my room usually,don't have still job and I listen music very often. But I don't like it,I wish I have friends and go out.
- They say that people with schizophrenia are dreamers and that's me,I daydreaming very often.I think about past often.
- Existential crisis , that I had and took me from time to time. Questions about the universe , how we come here , I received the dreaded fear because of these questions.Then I was thinking:" What if we, the world, and people are just someone's imagination ?" Sorts of bizarre thoughts I have in my head , and it is said how bizarre thinking is also symptom.
- Depresionalization and de-realization , and I had it for a couple of days , I look in the mirror and like I'm not me , the people and surrounding seems so strange , for example I'am sitting at a friend and ask myself " how am I here , if she really is my friend? " lol and I start panick .
- Impression of following ! Now this interests me what you think , because it is said that this is the main thing. I was a few years ago in connection with a boyfriend who is a cop , who threathen me for something , I was scared and I remember one time I looked out the window and thought: " What if he looks at me with some buildings? "
One relative stopped talking to my mom and me , did not want to come over our home, and I 'm sitting in the living room and think, " What if she put a microphone and tapped us" and I watch around and think how stupid I'am for thinking like that.
I have read online about a month ago a conspiracy theory how someone follow us and see us through the computer , and I think horrified " What if it's true? " and stared in fear at the screen and trying to imagine it as someone looking ,and the I said to myself: " what stupid nonsense."
Or when I was teenager I get into a fight with my mom I remember when she make breakfast,I think " what if she put something in the food? " but I eat all that and think how I'm not normal for thinking like that.So I struggled with bizarre thoughts ,and it is said how they also can be a sympthom of schizophrenia.
- Aggressiveness . I was aggressive until two years ago , broke glasses for example , I can not normally to argue , but yelling.I'm not like that aynmore, but I'm still concerned about it , as they say , it is a symptom .
- Disorganized thoughts, I do not know if this is it , but at one time I think of a singer , in another moment, think about the heels , or universe.I think of too many different topics at the same time.
- Difficulties in the conversation , such as when talking to someone, happens to me in the middle of a conversation I stop because I can not remember what I wanted to tell , I get confused , just do not know how to communicate well and explain some events .It happens but not often.
Well that's it , so I have or have had all these sympthoms .I'am 27 year old, they say that women are getting schizophrenia at their late 20s and 30s , so I'm just at that period.I only need a couple of years to see whether I get it or not.
And finally , as I have concluded that maybe I do have , if someone says that I have this condition right now, I would not trust him !Lol
Am I in the early stage? I will go to psychiatrist and copy this text but until then, if someone knows better about the disease to explain me.
I suffer from anxiety , have fear as when alone at home or when I need to travel , I think I'll get a heart attack or go crazy , and I had a panic attack.I suffered from various fears, mainly the biggest fear is that I will lose touch with reality .
I lie in bed before sleep, took me fear for no apparent reason.They also say unreasonably fears are the symptom.
I posted this on one forum, and one member said how I have milder form of schizophrenia and one other member say how I don't have it.I was so scared. Now I can't have peace.
Sorry for my English,is not so good.