I'm not sure how long i've had mine, since when I was little i'd have really short episodes of it (like literally 20 minutes) and then it'd go away, but from the start of last year it's really creeped up on me and has not gone since.
I'm 16 and I guess i'm a pretty healthy person. I used to swim every week for 2-3 years, I kinda played some sports and yeah. Ever since I got this anxiety thing it's been pretty stressful. I would stare at something (like blanking out) and the world outside me would feel really... different? Like i'm looking at the world through glass.
My symptoms are: feeling light-headed and dizzy when i'm paying attention to it, feeling down, fast heart-beat, feeling like i'm going to faint, sometimes i'd get a numb face (but it hasn't really come up for a while now), feel like i'm going to suddenly forget everything (i have pretty good memory), whenever i speak i feel like its not me, when i do things sometimes i feel like its not me, vision depth is weird, foggy brain, headaches, smothering breath, my leg would have this shooting pain, feel like i cant recognise my parents, feels like i'm watching a movie, when people have a conversation with me i sometimes dont realise what theyre talking about because im so focused on this thing, if i go to a place where I felt GAD but a more worser feeling i'd get it again (like at a train station or school etc.) I get derealisation MOST of the time, there will be times when i'll get depersonalization.
Recently i've been trying to forget about it and letting it go, but sometimes it gets me even more panicked because I feel like 'what if its cancer but you don't know it?' or 'what if you have a brain tumor?'.
If you guys know what the symptom difference is between a brain tumor and GAD please tell me :3
I actually sleep pretty well (8 hours a day and I don't wake up in between), and I eat pretty healthy (lol what cough), and i'm still a pretty happy person, but on the inside it's just so annoying and so distressing because I want to know that i'm 100% happy and in tune with whats around me but most of the time it's like 60-70%. I guess on SOME days i'm good, and on some days it feels pretty sh.t. I still do well at school, which is a good thing (touch wood), but ugh.
I want to go to check on my blood and scans and stuff, but I don't have the guts to tell my parents -.- maybe when the time is right? I don't want to feel this way for the rest of my life. -.-
I feel slightly better when I practise breathing or exercise techniques, or when I exercise, or when I listen to nice music or when i'm in a beautiful seaview and those really pretty landscapes. And I also tend to forget about it when I'm with friends.
Anybody feel the same way?