Sounds to me like it was him who made the choice to leave the reading. Not you. There you are been brave and telling him you want to stay and he makes the choice to leave. Then blames it on you. Fact is that most people without any kind of anxiety disorder don't fully understand what it is that we go through. We can try explain. We can have them read all the books out there. But it is not the same as experiencing it first hand. It is only after you have had a full blown panic attack that you know what others feel like. So he will never fully know what you go through and what you feel like. To him it is a case ' oh, just get over it '. If only it was that easy. We would all be out there enjoying ourselves. I would ask him a straight forward question. What exactly does he expect you to do, that you haven't already tried? Just to see what sort of answer he comes up with. He must have some ideas in his head on what he thinks it is that is holding you back. Wrong ideas mind you. But it would be good to let him tell you what he thinks. You can ask him, if he was in your shoes, what would he do different? It might hit home that he has no real idea what you go through. If he can't answer a simple question. If you really wish to let him know how bad anxiety is print out your post and any replies you get to it. He will see it is not just you. Heck there are thousands upon thousands of others just like you out there. Not sure if you ever tried therapy? Just to have that other person to talk to and guide you along. You might learn something new. Something you can use if you ever have to go out. But just because he says he will go out alone from now on in, that does not mean that you have to stop going out. Use that time to go places with less people in them. This would be exposure therapy. Putting yourself in situations you would normally run from. Just do it a small bit at a time. Nobody to force you into doing anything you don't want to do. Over time you will find that things do become easier. As it stands he is forcing your hand. We don't need that in our improvement. We need time. To do things slowly. Then it will all come together. So stick with it. Don't let him put you off going out and trying new things out. I think you were making a great effort and he, again, forced the issue, and said it was time to go, and then blamed it on you. That is his fault. Not yours. You just look around for some form of help by way of a therapist if you can afford one. It will really help. If not. Self help books. Push yourself slowly out there. Bit like self therapy. Keeping track in a journal or a diary of how you are doing. We have all been there. We know exactly what it is like. Things will get better.