Hi guys, I'm 15 yr old female and about a month ago I was diagnosed with anxiety, though I feel I've had the symptoms since the start of the year, and they have been getting heaps worse!
It started with something strange, I would always make sure the powerpoint switches were off, as they annoyed me (I don't do this any more). It has not come to the point where I freak out about everything. My head never shuts up, which has made it very difficult to do my homework, and I constantly move (e.g rocking back and forth when sitting on my bed, swinging from side to side when standing up, jiggling my leg). I also have these strange moments when my left hand will cramp. I got it for the first time a month ago and tried to ply it open with my other hand, but the feeling was sooo bad and uncomfortable that I went into what I think was an anxiety attack, cause I started hyperventilating and shaking a lot. The worse symptom I probably have is the pitted feeling in my stomach. When I get it I can never concentrate and I lose my appetite, which is rare for me as I kinda have a love for food... I also have a problem with wanting everything to be perfect, and go the way I think it to go. I imagine several different ways certain events could go and always think of the worst one, which makes me feel really anxious.. and I kinda talk to myself as well (yeah, I'm kinda weird)..
I did have type of support through this at school, as I told my friend who turned into my boyfriend everything I was going though. He broke it off with me three weeks ago though, showed his true colours and how I couldn't give a care in the world about me and my problems.. He's making my anxiety worse though cause he says there was no motive behind breaking up with me, which makes absolutely no sense...
I haven't been going too well lately because of this, as I now feel completely and utterly alone, mainly cause anyone I try to talk to about it either makes fun of me or just doesn't understand. And I did start seeing a psychologist, but I hate it and feel it isn't working cause I can't talk about myself and my feelings, mainly cause I'm very closed in and used to being on my own. Oh, and cause I have really big trust problems..
If anyone knows, are there any other ways which I can help settle my anxiety, cause at this very moment it is horridly bad and I've had that pit feeling in my stomach for nearly two days now (had it for weeks before) and I want to stop it before it get worse.
Sorry for writing so much, I've been really sad and lonely these couple of weeks cause of the thing with my boyfriend.. I just feel like I've lost the only friend in the world who's actually cared about me..