I have been Christian all my life and had so much faith and went to healing masses and services and everything but I always had the anxiety. I really had faith, believed absolutely that God heals. Now the past few years I guess I have hit an area where after so much praying and faith etc. and still having the same stuff, I wonder what's going on. I get so tired of that old line, it's not Him, it's you not having enough this or that or too much of this or that. I know God can heal anyone, even those without faith if He chooses. To say He can't do something because of me just makes me angry because surely I'm not powerful enough to stop God from doing something He wants to do. So I wondered if He wanted to do it. The Bible says He does. I just mostly like to pray the bit from Ekekiel which says take out my stony heart of sin and give me a new heart with new and right desires. I think that is the most perfect prayer in the whole Bible. I just don't know where I stand with faith right now as it has been very shaken by a lot of things.