Hello everyone! I'm a 40 year old female who just got diagnosed with this wonderful thing called Anxiety with a side of panic attacks. While that is not funny, trying to figure out which type of anxiety I have is. See, I feed myself horrible thoughts all day long, which leads to physical symptoms of anxiety (dizziness 24/7, stiff neck, headaches, muscle weakness...) which triggers my hypochondria causing a full blown panic attack which causes more symptoms and around and around I go. Before you know it I'm to afraid to leave the house (agoraphobia) and I start looking up all my symptoms on the Internet making everything worst. It's a vicious cycle but Im happy to say that after a year or Cognitive Behavioral Therapy I am learning how to stop the cycle.
A little about me. I'm the mother of three. 19 year old boy, 17 yr old boy, and 11 yr old girl. I am married to an amazing man, have my dream job, and a roof over my head. So why all the anxiety? I grew up with a mom who battled cancer from my age of 11 to 22 when her body just couldn't do it anymore. My father is a great man but he is OCD where everything has to be perfect and people's perception of you is everything. So when you have one sick parent and another trying to keep the castle from falling it causes a very high level of anxiety in the house. I'm learning that I have always had anxiety I just didn't know it had a name. And because I've always lived in a state of anxiety now the physical symptoms have reared its ugly head.
6 months ago,After a unsuccessful attempt to rid myself of all toxins, my body went into complete shock. I believe I had a healing crisis. I felt like I was dying but the worst thing detoxing did for me was trigger major panic attacks and the symptoms that went along with it. Dizziness all day, nausea, muscle weakness, headaches, IBS, blurred vision, foggy head where I couldn't think of words... It was awful. So why am I here? Well, as I said before I've come a long way. But I still have a long way to go and I want to learn and teach as much as I can along my journey. The first question I would have is this... Are your physical symptoms still with you even when you aren't feeling anxious? Even when things are going good? Thank you for listening!