I will try to make this as short as possible....
On December 28th 2008 0213 12:00 AM, I was in a bar and a guy I knew wanted to race me (our cars). To make a long story short, we started a race, but he finished it by running a stop sign and hitting a box truck. I witnessed the entire thing from about 50 yards away. I jumped out of my car to try and aid the 4 people in the guys car. They were totally messed up - all knocked out, bleeding, moaning, etc... This was by far the most gruesome thing I have ever seen in my life.
I called 911 and stayed until the cops finished interviewing me. Life flight did show up for one of the girls in the back seat was seriously injured. Nobody died and all the people were back, working at the bar about a month later.
4 months later, I find out that there is a warrant for my arrest! The charge - racing on a highway w/ serious bodily injury - a 2ND DEGREE FELONY here in Texas. The driver of the other car and one of the passengers lied and said that it was totally my idea to race and I caused the accident - all TOTALLY untrue. I later found out that these people were looking to get more insurance money from my carrier.
I was a scared as ever, for I have never been in trouble before and always tried to live a "no-risk" life. The whole court thing lasted 13 months and I left with 2 years probation and 1 year suspended license. Probation was no problem for me, because I did everything they asked for, never did any drugs and paid them their money....which was the main thing they look for. I was let off 5 months early and ready to put that chapter of my life behind me.
I got off probation on January 6th 2012. It was like a huge boulder was lifted off my shoulders, but things in my life did not look up, but got progressively worse. Now, I am suffering from extreme anxiety and agoraphobia. I harbored great feelings of hate and anger towards myself, the people that lied, the justice system and my attorney. I cannot trust anyone now, for I feel that everyone is looking to "get over" on me.
It has never dawned on me that this could be PTSD. For those that do have it....could this be it?