HA is a 'doubting disease', if you will. Doubt is pervasive. If you didn't have the doubt you would not have HA:) LOL.
When we are struggling, mightily, we even lose trust in the best definer of our overall happiness and well-being - US. Anxiety can take away our ability to even know if what we are doing in life is 'correct'. Or, at least, that is how we feel. And, HA can certainly bleed over in to MANY facets of our lives and permeate major portions of our lives with fear, doubt, insecurity, unworthiness, etc. HA is rarely ALL about health, though the major driver is our health concerns and fear of leaving behind our loved ones or missing out on life (when we die or are incapacitated before our time). I've been an anxiety peep for 28 years now....I haven't died or left anyone behind...though I was SURE it would happen soooooo many years ago and for soooooo many years I felt this way. Anxiety can be a royal bitch!:)
Anywho, med testing doesn't provide us with the lasting solace we desire. Doesn't even come close. Fleeting relief is all we get, until the doubts and 'what if's?' come trickling back in, perhaps. Maybe a life event (a move, a career change, a real health issue, a relationship change - good or bad, etc.) can precipitate an uptick in our overall anxiety. And, having anxiety disorder(s) / health anxiety we need to have some habits and actions and mindsets in place to help us along the way...help us navigate through life, which can throw stuff at us all the time - again, good and not so good.
The doubt is there. We can help it from becoming dominate, though. A main way is to feel the doubt but do not fall back into previous patterns of behavior like seeking out ANOTHER med test or another Doc visit for the same issues...or closely related issues. Sure it takes a leap of faith, as we feel we are in peril. But, when we feel the fear and do not fall back into bad cycles then we can, eventually, show ourselves that we do not have to always frantically react when scared. Eventually, is key. It takes time to develop new patterns of habits and actions and mindsets...but it can be done, definitely. Sometimes it is scary, for sure....we do have HA. This makes us want to seek out reassurances. But, longterm, all reassuracnces do is help keep us locked into fear cycles that prevent us from finding some better lasting peace.
What were you doing for your anxiety when you were doing OK for those several months?
What are you doing now?
Are you exercising?
Do not doubt that the best person to help you is yourself. Do not doubt that, ultimately, you do know what is best for you (in all parts of your life:). Do not doubt that anxiety can be dimishined in its ability to drive your live. Do not doubt that many others have found a lasting healing path. Do not doubt that the same IS available to you, as well:)
Peace and Feel Well:)