Hey, why do you call yourself dogboy? When I first read that, I thought, hey, here's someone who appreciates the qualities that dogs have . . . loyal, trustworthy, perseverance . . . . I thought, what a nifty person and being able to be this at 14 . . . must be a super guy to know . . . .
I know anxiety is crap . . . been there but I have also made the return trip . . . . have you thought about when you started feeling this way? Did something happen at home or school or with friends?
I know what you are saying about people not understanding . . . it is really difficult for folks who have not experienced anxiety to know what it is like . . . it's a really difficult thing to explain and even if we could explain it, it is not about words, it's about feeling so that makes it even more difficult . . .
You might not want to hear this but there is good news . . . yes, the anxiety crap is a process to recover from but you can do it . . . you are 14 so your brain is pretty plastic in that it is developing and you can have a key role in helping it to develop in a good way . . . .it would be great if you could have a professional help you . . . .does your school offer any resources? One of the ways that I approached it (yep, I had to work through different strategies and adapt them to me) was to look at my relationship to anxiety like a video type game . . . now, that does not mean fighting it; it means outsmarting it . . . . my first step (and all first steps are difficult and take time) was to look anxiety as the kid who always wants to set the rules . . . little by little, I broke the rules and set my own . . .when anxiety told me not to try and go for a walk for 5 minutes, I did it and then I kept adding to it; when anxiety told me that I was pretty useless, I made a list of all the things (mostly small) where I saw my worth from bringing in someone's garbage cans to calling someone who was lonely . . . you get the picture . . .recovering from anxiety is an individual thing . . . you just have to find the right way to approach it for you . . . .
Yep, get professional intervention if you can . . .it does not necessarily have to include meds if that is a concern . . .and you may need to try a couple of different professionals but find one that will guide you . . .and, as always, you are so welcome to come by here . . . all I can say is that if you decide to end it all, then anxiety wins and I have the feeling that you are too strong to let anything get the best of you . . . you will have to work at it but you don't have to fight it . . . . you need to understand that it is a health issue and approach it as such and you need to know that this is a welcoming community so come here as often as you would like . . . .we will support you as you recover and who knows, you may even tell us why you choose dogboy122 as a screen name . . .take care, KC