I'm new to this forum and I'm looking for any familiarity or insight in the type of anxiety I am suffering from. My anxiety is entirely based on philosophical realities that I can't change. Specifically, I have been almost constantly anxious for the past few months about the fact that all humans inhabit the same moment time. "Now" is the only time that exists and anything that anyone is thinking, doing, or saying is happening "now." Even writing this raises my anxiety. This thought freaks me out because...I have trouble articulating it...but it has something to do with feeling trapped in the moment, not having my own path in life, and a sort of claustrophobia of time. These thoughts started suddenly one day when the simultaneity of everything just occurred to me, and I have been uneasy about it since, sometimes feeling dread and despair from not knowing how or if I can overcome these thoughts. I find that I do not enjoy my favorite activities as much because underlying them my mind is thinking "the only time is now...there are 7 billion other people in the world moving and talking now...the past is gone and the present will become the past....everyone's concept of life is an illusion" and similar thoughts. I'm seeing a therapist and it helps to talk during the sessions but the relief doesn't last long afterwards. I'm taking Ativan most days when I'm feeling worst. I'm getting through my days but I haven't felt like myself in months. I've been doing a lot of writing to try to get to the bottom of my issue and I find it helps and I'm still hoping I will eventually come to understand that my unease about time and simultaneity are unfounded. I've made some progress but I'm still regularly struck with the panic that "all that is is now." Part of me recognizes this as not just a philosophical problem but an anxiety problem (since I'm dealing with a reality we all live with) that needs to be treated medically.
I would love to get anyone's insight on this. Has anyone dealt with a similar cause for anxiety? Any ideas for relief? Thanks for reading.