At 19 years old, I can't enjoy my life. I can't leave my house, I can't even think about leaving my house, I can't watch certain tv shows, I cant listen is to certain conversations... My anxiety has all but killed me thus far.
Today it's all got too much for me. The past few weeks have been hell. After a very stressful period a month or so back I expected a pretty bad period of anxiety, but nothing like this.
Basically, my symptoms are dizziness, feeling faint, head pressure, weird headache, a kind of pulsing feeling sometimes. I keep getting there weird head rush feelings, they last roughly a minute but I'm always left feeling spaced out and weird for hours afterwards. I also get the usual sweats and heart racing feeling along with it (usually after the dizziness) They come on at totally random times. I'm scared to leave my house in case this happens when I'm out in public and I embarrass myself.
I'm also freaking out about neck cancer? I feel like I have a hard large lump on the back of my neck just to the side of the top of my spine, a few doctors have felt this and tell me its nothing and it only hurts because I keep pressing and poking at it (which I do) but I still worry all my symptoms are related to this. I've had the lump, or what I think is a lump for well over a year. I'm terrified that the doctors are missing it and it's cancer and It will spread to my brain.
Today I had the dizziness again, im left feeling very spaced out and weird. Really on edge just waiting for it to happen again.
I can't even talk to my parents about it because all they say is "theres nothing wrong with you, go get some fresh air" while im left feeling like im about to pass out.
I was recently put back on proponalol and been referred to a psychologist. I don't know if I can wait that long though I'm freaking out so much. Feel like im about to die at any second