Hey....I have the same fears. I had them under control for awhile. I had lost almost 30 pounds in a month back in July and August. Then I went on Klonopin and started eating more and put 10 pounds back on and then stabilized, but I am a diabetic and my blood sugars started being high. So now I've cut back, but all of a sudden I've lost 5-10 pounds in the last 2 weeks. All along I've had this strange discomfort under my right ribs. I had an Ultrasound done on the area in August and no gallstones. Told I had a fatty Liver, but otherwise everything looked OK. So September and most of October were mostly OK. I saw a GI doc on Oct. 3rd because I was referred by my GP and it took forever to get in, and I told him I felt better and that I didn't think I needed to even come, but then he said he'd still like to do an Endoscopy and Colonoscopy "just to rule things out". He said he would do the Endo 1st (in about 5 weeks), then schedule the Colo if the Endo showed nothing. But I felt fine, and the cost will be high, and I was kind of afraid, especially that they would find something, so I cancelled. Then I started freaking out. I also have cut my Klonopin to 1 pill per day from 2 because I want off of it. But my anxiety/panic attacks are back now. Plus the weight loss. I still have the stomach/right side discomfort. Oh...i also had a CT of the whole area back in July that was normal. Oh....and i am also mildly anemic, but have normal iron levels. I'm all screwed up. So afraid they will find Cancer. SO AFRAID! I'm 42 and I have a 6 yr old girl I love more than life itself and so afraid of dying and leaving her. Anyway, I called the GI doc today and told them I had changed my mind again and do want the Endoscopy, and they had a cancellation, so I am getting it on Monday, 3 days from now, which is a whole week earlier than the original one I had scheduled. I am totally freaking out big time. Panic attack going on. I am scared out of my mind. I just want to feel normal again. No stomach pain. No weight loss unless I am trying to lose weight purposely. Tired of Doctors and Tests and worrying. I have so many bills from all the doctors and tests since mid-July. What has happened to me??? I just keep thinking of dying of cancer and how horrible it would be, leaving my daughter, and I want to be happy and do so much more in life, and see her grow up. I can think of nothing but being scared of cancer and dying, though. Its like my life is being totally ruined, what's left of it.