My health anxiety has really flared up again. I was doing good for about 6 weeks. Well, good for me so relatively speaking.
Apologize in advance for thei being TMI and gross but I am really worried.
I used to obsess over gastro issues so I had an endoscopy in 2011 and a colonoscopy in Feb 2012. The colonosopy was perfect, no polyps or anything of concern. So for a year afterward I had no gastro worries(had PLENTY of other health worries though).
Last spring I did a round of antibiotics for a sinus infection and my bowel movements were weird for awhile after that. It made me anxious to look and question the shape, color etc so I got in the habit of not looking in the bowl afterward(a good habit cause looking is gross!!!)
Fast forward to yesterday. (again apology for TMI) My stool was extremely long and to my eye flatter than "normal". Not sure what caused it to be this way but remember reading years ago that flat poos could be bad. But it wasnt really flat, just not as round as usual if that makes any sense. But then I remembered that my gastro told me you are safe for 10 years after a clean colonoscopy(it takes that long for "something to grow" I suppose.). SO I talked myself down and tried to rationalize.
Then this morning I had another bm. This time I just flushed cause I was afraid to set off my anxiety again. However, a couple minutes later I had to go again. It was a small second bm but this time I looked and it was just a "string" around 5 inches long but very thin. My anxiety shot through the roof. Im trying to be sane and say that is just residual second poo and I believe I have gotten it many times before. (when my anxiety is like this I question my recollection of things. Its hard to say for certain).
I told my wife and she looks at me like I am insane. I know I just need to wait and see. I know I will look insane telling my doctor this. But Im so worried it is something that I cant concentrate on work or anything else.
If you have had anything like this I would appreciate your comment.