Hello, I'm new to the forum and have a tendency toward ranty posts but it actually feels good to type this out so hopefully it doesn't read too boring. I've had experience with anxiety and panic in the past during stressful situations but it wasn't until this year that I really began to take notice to something entirely different. I'm 23 graduated and dealt with some pre graduation jitters. Mainly thinking about the future. (nothing that made me feel too anxious though) At the same time I began to feel anxiety in certain situations and tried to satisfy it leading to what i consider to be OCD (haven't been diagnosed with OCD). This has snowballed over the last 5 months (with the past 2 being a real peak) and now I have sought help of doctors and the people around me. I look very forward to getting my life started with a new career and new place but I feel pulled into the past with this anxiety and fearful of the future when I should be hopeful. I thought that I lost my old self but as I begin this adventure I'm still here just dealing with another problem and like others I will get through it. I enjoy working out and am trying to become a bigger guy (what people consider bodybuilders). I enjoy traveling, and exploring big cities. I recently graduated from college and am finally starting to formulate a plan of action for the future. I won't let this anxiety define me, it's been a rough 5 months though. Thanks for reading!