To start off, I'm a 20 year old male. I've been dealing with anxiety and depression for about 3-4 years now. I have a girlfriend of four years and I live with my parents.
Thankfully, my family has been very supportive of my mental and emotional issues and have done a lot to help me. I've been on Zoloft for almost a year now, and as of late I've been having weekly visits with my therapist. With all this said, I still feel like my life isn't going anywhere.
I'm not totally sure why I developed my anxiety in the first place, but I know it started in late 2009. Evidently, this is also around the time my girlfriend and I started dating. At that time, my girlfriend was recovering from being raped and was in a bad mental state herself, so I was extremely protective of her especially in public. I feel like my anxiety heavily stems from this, because it was around this time that I began to stay home and not go out. Prior to all of this I spent pretty much all of my time hanging out with friends, playing bands, going to shows, etc... even then I had some issues with anxiety/depression, but I was still a generally happy person. These days I pretty much only spend time with my girlfriend at home, and I haven't seen my friends in months.
I'm not in school, I haven't worked since 2011, I'm badly out of shape and I'm not doing anything with my life. I know the things I need to do, I just don't know how. I just want to be happy and move on with my life, because I've spent a good part of it wasting away in my room wishing I was doing something with it. I feel very alone. My girlfriend also has some mental and emotional issues, and in turn it makes it hard for her to comfort me. She works very long hours and is unhappy at her home because of her parents. I don't blame her, however, and helping her get better is just as important for me. One of the biggest issues is how messy my room is, it affects both of us and I think there's a lot of negative energy from how cluttered it is.
In terms of goals, I'd like to get my bachelors degree, possibly in graphic design or computers. I also have an interest in sports journalism (mainly for combat sports), as well as photography. I'd love to travel, especially to Japan, China, South Korea, Mongolia, etc. Up until a few months ago, I was training in Brazilian Jiu Jitsu at a local academy and it was a lot of fun, but my anxiety and depression has definitely prevented me from going back as of late. I'd love to fight professionally in mixed martial arts, just for fun.
The idea of going to school and getting a job are so simple, but they scare me a lot. Lately my depression has been worse and I've been sleeping all day. I feel like I'm failing my parents and all of my friends.
Has anyone else been in a situation like this and overcame it? I'd love to hear your story and if possible, hear your advice.