Well, the day has come. I have to go see one of the most biggest and important clients for my small business. I know I already have the account based of work that I have done for them, but of course, they want to me and get to know me better. Officially getting this account will propel my small business to the next level and mean great things for the future.
THE PROBLEM - I am already thinking of excesses NOT to show up for fear of leaving and staying out of my house for an extended period of time, or getting to their office and "loosing" it. I already gave them a BS excuse about 4 weeks ago. I totally stood them up for an appointment we had, and then came up with a lie to cover my 0104.
It has been about 4 months since I have had to travel across Houston. The trip will take me about 30 min. to get there and I figure the meeting will last about 1-2 hours. I really, really hope the panic stays at bay.
To try and prepare for the meeting, I took .5 xanax today (the most I have ever taken in three years) to see how it made me feel. Needless to say, I freaked myself out because I started to feel weird.
To all agoraphobics and xanax users, can you please please give me some advice on how to cope with this situation. Should I try and take more xanax, like .75 or a full 1mg? I am just scared that the drug will have adverse effects on me or that I will be to dull or worse, look like a guy on drugs.
For agoraphobics that have to leave the house, how do you cope with these feelings? The biggest feeling I get now, is a feeling of escape. I feel like I have to jump out of my skin, or out of my chair and get to the nearest emergency room.
All advise would be very great. The one thing I am looking forward to is when I do conquer this (because I HAVE TO GO)...I believe that I can look back on this as a HUGE victory in getting over my fear of leaving the house.