Hi, I'm new here. I'm 20 years old and I suffer from social anxiety/hypochondria/GAD.
I have always been shy and nervous around people, that's just who I am. But the real anxiety didn't kick in until 2 years ago when I started smoking marijuana chronically for a whole year. (Basically nonstop all day everyday) I know it can help some people, but for me it just increased my intrusive thoughts and I just can't stop now. The biggest thing that gets to me, is when I step outside and it just feels like a whole new world. I can't really see straight, my vision is all spacey. I can't really even go to the grocery store anymore, I can't work. And because I don't go outside, being in all day makes my thought patterns worse (bad for my hypochondria) I've been suffering from so much anxiety recently..it just feels like it's taking total control over me.
I been to two therapists, one talked too much and really never believed that i had social anxiety. and the other well, i talked and she said like two sentences. I went to my local mental facility and I was prescribed Zoloft and Hydroxyine Pamoate. I felt kinda pressured by the lady like she was more interested in my boyfriend and where i worked rather than me. Literally the session took 10-15 mins, even the lady at the counter was shocked. I tried both, and honestly I just can't take em. :/ I don't know what to do! I feel like I am stuck! I think a lot of people don't take me seriously because I can hide my feelings very well, I smile and laugh because that's how I deal when I feel awkward. Any advice? Or anyways to help how to tell my subconscious to get my vision back to normal?