We all, at times, need to search deep within ourselves, and ask ourselves questions about our own lives. I think you have done that part and you know the past year has really got to you. But like most of us you tried to get on with things as normal. At times we have no choice. Life tells us we simply have to move along. When really the mind and the body needs a time out to work through all life has thrown at us over that past year. Death is never a nice thing. I have only lost one parent thus far. We have to get what is inside of us out. Bit like setting it free. We can do that in a journal if we wanted to. Write a letter to those who have passed on. Telling them how much you always loved on. How much you will miss them. I think one important part is to let them know you accept that they have died. A lot of people find letting go very hard on them. They still want to hold on to those who have passed on. We can always remember. They will always be looking over us. But we have to let them move on. Depending on what you believe about any after life. I think to not let go is to hold the spirit back from moving on. Just my own personal opinion. Big believer in the spirit world. I do think they can see all that goes on after they have died. If a person is begging for them to come back, etc, etc, they won't wish to move on. Again, just my own belief. I like to say to say to the dead person, that I loved them, and I accept they have died and I give them my permission to move on. That I never will forget them. You can do it all in writing. Or even say it out loud. It is like a form of therapy. It may bring up strong emotions. You may cry. But there is nothing wrong with crying. We all do it at certain times. It is more you tapping into your emotions. Once you do this part of things you can make plans to begin to sort the rest of your life out again. I am sure once one part is sorted out you will feel inspired to move forward with sorting other areas out and you can get back to where you once were in life again. Back out there doing what you want to do. Which is most probably what your parents would have wanted for you. We are always here for you. To help in any way we can.