I could make this post insanely long but I'll keep it short and say that i'm in a committed 3 year relationship that's had it's ups and downs. For a year it was mostly downs and a whole lot of bad things happened on both our parts, he ended things and told me he didn't love me anymore, I was completely devastated and it was the hardest thig I've ever been through. A few weeks later he said he had made the worst mistake and missed me and wanted to forget all the past and just move forward with our love and with the good(there was a lot of good as well) so I agreed and we took things slow and our back together. Now, before you think this is some dysfunctional relationship where it's on again off again, it's not, there was a lot of negative before we broke up, but after things became so great. We don't fight anymore, no more lying from him, he's nicer to me than I could have dreamed up, does everything with me and for me, tells me how much he loves me every day and now he actually proves it and the best part is I didn't even have to try for this outcome, I don't have to ask or beg, it just happened. It honestly feels like a dream and I know that I am so lucky. Love really did win this time and got through everything.
So the problem? My mind. Before things got better, I worried constantly and nagged and was obsessive and just AWFUL. Given he did lie a lot and give me reason to worry. After things fixed, my worrying got so much better than before. I trusted our love completely because I knew what it felt like to lose it all and get it back. Just... Like a dream. But months have passed and my worrying is coming back. I could describe it as just being worried tht he will break up with me again, not love me or be lying about loving me now, get back to the horrible things from our past(Internet infedelity) or lie like before. He is great and gives me no reason to worry and constantly reassures me, but my mind won't let me rest or believe anything. It's starting to become a horrible problem and i'm afraid I will lose him again if I don't stop.