We'll I will first begin by saying all responses will be appreciated. This has been the worst 5 months of my life . It started at the mention of a Thyroid problem. I knew nothing of this so I worked myself into frenzy and full anxiety mode. I spent numerous hours on the computer googling until I created a new problem. This was followed by a brain tumor scare in which took numerous doctors visits and a mri to confirm I was okay. Finally i was getting my stress levels down and a new fear came along. It started with a sore throat. I treated this with antibiotics and it went away. But everything else in my mouth has gone wrong. I am now obsessed with checking my mouth. I see so many things wrong. My right tonsil seems to look different from the left. Also my lingual tonsil on the same side (I guess that is what it's called) seems to look a bit different as well. That's just the beginning. I have went to see my doctor, ENT, Dentist, and Oral surgeon. I have has a scope done and nothing was found. My initial visit to the dentist was good. One day I get up and I notice that I have a spot on my tongue to the left side. I watched it for about a week and saw no change. That one spot then turned to three in different locations ( one on the tip and two to the left side) in turn I feel minor irritation on tongue certain days. I constantly check the sides of my tongue. On the right side it sometimes looks white but it comes and goes. On the left side just where one of the spots are it seems pretty white but it doesn't look like a patch it just looks whiter and thick. I don't know if this is because of the spots that it seems more pronounced. I am constantly checking other family members mouth and looking to see if they have the same. I have very pronounced papillae at the back of my mouth that goes pretty far into the throat which caused my first reason for alarm. When I had the scope she showed me everything and said all was normal as the dentist said the same. Also my tongue seems to be a bit whitish than it was before. It used to be a normal pink color. The spots are not bright red but more like a pink color. Anyway this past week I decided to visit the dentist again who stated that he does not know what the spots are but that he didn't feel it was a danger and requested I see a oral surgeon again. I did as I was told. All I do is cry because I am afraid of the worst. Even making the appointment I was in tears. So I go into the office and have an immediate breakdown. The doctor sees me and begins to check my mouth. He again states that he is not sure but that it seems as it is a benign condition as he would recognize something critical. He also mention that I have a fourth spot on the back of my tongue that looks like the rest. None raised just bald patches. He takes a biopsy and tells me to return in a week. I am afraid because each case presents differently and he might not have come across one like this. Each time I read I see different symptoms and findings. Of course this is the hardest time of my life. It's only been four days and all I can think is that something is wrong and come Monday I will hear the bad news. What puzzles me most is that everything is on the left side yet all the physical symptoms are on the right. This further scares me because suppose my entire head and mouth is affected. Can I possibly have oral cancer on both sides of my mouth, throat and tongue. I know that this pretty long and I'm sorry but I have been depressed for months with this. I have ready many posts in this fear of oral cancer but mine by Far is the most complicated. Before I finish I will give a timeline of these problems:
1. May 2013 - lightheaded, headaches, tingling on tight side, palpitations
2. neurology, medical, cardiologists tests done including MRI
3. June 2013 - stress levels come down. Wake up one morning with sore throat and feeling of something in throat. Treated with antibiotics. Sore throat goes away but feeling still there. 1st visit to doctor and ENT
4. July 2013 - Symptoms continue and now I start getting Minor ear pain and sometime jaw pain(right side only) this makes me start looking at my . Second trip to doctor, ENT, and dentist. Again, they all say things are clear. I'm not convinced.
August 2013 - spots appear in mouth, started with one and then three. Third trip to doctor, dentist, then oral surgeon. Biopsy done and awaiting results.
I can type forever with my problem but any insight will be appreciated. Hypochondria has taken over my life. I have not been happy for a long time.