Who can relate to all of this, im wondering if im the only one
Isnt life great, living alone and around family who are liars and cant be trusted at all, family and friends mean nothing to me, I hate them for the suffering they cause me, I lost any friends I had years ago and about to lose the remaining of my family to cancer, its great fun watching people get sick and dieing I can tell you, it really helps make my life more hell then it already is, and doing it alone is damn hard especially after seeing and being through it already god knows how many times but noone has the time of day for me so thats how it has to be. I hope my brother rots in hell and suffers darely for what he has done, i hate seeing my father dieing which is killing me, my sister is probably on the way back to prison so she can rot in hell aswell and everyone one else, well there all dead already
I feel depressed, very agitated, angry and impatient, have no time for people at all, scared, lonely, abandoned, worthless, confused and just dont know what to do. I get so scared of the weekend coming because Sundays I dont goto work so having nothing to keep my mind occupied, this really worries me. i try to think of things i can do but its just about impossible to do anything without people being around you. My life is over
Its a scary thought of what will happen next, the thought of death is on my mind constantly, i dont think i have had a single day in the last 10 years where i havent thought about death, if im not dieing then someone else is. How people can be happy is beyond me, I just dont understand how its possible to be happy about anything.
Anyway, not looking for a solution as to me thats death but just wondering if anyone else has this much to deal with every single day of there life like me? Its like living in a prison to some degree