I'm almost less anxious this time, because I'm so exhausted from anxiety that I just feel like giving up. I had severe health anxiety for 6 months (half because of an endometrial polyp and half because of constant loose stools). For while, I was convinced I had colon cancer because of loose bowel movements every morning for 6 months and possible specks of blood in the stool, but I couldn't tell. I had a 3-day fecal occult blood test, which was negative, and then my stools went back to a normal consistency and frequency - yay! I got to have a few weeks of thinking that, maybe, I wasn't dying.
Then on Friday, I had a pea-sized amount of white mucus on the toilet paper after a bowel movement. The next time, I had a small streak of pink blood. The next time, I had quite a large amount of mucus streaked with blood. This morning, I had more blood. Sigh. I asked one online doctor and they said that mucus is rare with a hemorrhoid and it was likely a polyp or "growth." Having HA, I know most polyps don't cause symptoms, so polyp and "growth" is a nice way of saying cancer. Sent me into a panic. Asked another doctor on the same site, but from oncology, and he said it didn't sound like cancer and that internal hemorrhoids could cause mucus and blood.
Before the blood and mucus started, I went to the ER because I was freaking out over the loose stool and possible blood. Since my mom died of colon cancer, and I was very anxious, they booked me for a colonoscopy, which has now been changed to a sigmoidoscopy. It's not until October 24. I feel so deflated and so exhausted from being anxious. I can barely work. I know that with all these symptoms, there is probably a good chance that it's colon cancer. It can present in so many different ways. The only things I can reassure myself with is that my FOBT came back negative, which means this bleeding is most likely new, and I have been having harder bowel movements lately, so maybe it could be hemorrhoids. I don't know. I'm just tired of this. Crying now