I've had health anxiety for as long as I can remember. In high school I would become paranoid about a million different conditions, and obsess over it. So I know that I have an anxiety and OCD problem. I'm really trying to deal with it the best as I can. I ve been seeing a therapist every 2 weeks for years, I try to take long walks and keep active, I used to do yoga, etc.
However since July 2012, after I had an emergency surgery ( I had appendicitis) things havent been the same. A few days after I came back home from the hospital, I had a terrible fight with my husband, and that s when everything started. I felt so dizzy, the room was spinning, I had a hard time walking straight, I thought I might faint. This had never happened to me before. I panicked, and went to ER. They said everything was normal, and that it was probably from the surgery. I tried to believe that.
Things did not get better. I could hardly get out of the house. I started having muscle twitches a week later, and felt sick to my stomach. I also started having numbness and pins and needles on the right side of my face. I went back to the hospital, they did some tests, emg, ecg, I saw a neuro, etc. They sent me back home saying it was anxiety.
I really want to believe that that s what it is. Anxiety. But I've dealt with health anxiety in the past, and that s not what it is. Now it has been 14 months, Ive been feeling terrible. During those 14 months, there s only two periods of about a month where I was feeling slightly better. I now have frequent numbness and pins and needles feeling that can show up anywhere, dizziness that come and go, muscle twitching all over, even in my fingers sometimes. I feel unsteady when I walk. and I try to test my memory all the time because I'm scared I have memory issues.
I m terrified of neurological diseases, and I dont know what to do anymore. I feel like things are getting worse. I dont think it can only be health anxiety. I am now on 100mg of Zoloft. It helped a little in June when I started taking it, but not anymore. I went back to see the neurologist a few weeks ago, she said that my symptoms did not point out to anything, and that the neuro exam was normal. She said I could do an MRI of the spine, ( I didnt do that yet) but she doesnt think it s gonna show anything.
The thing is I am so convinced there is something wrong, but nobody can see it. I just cant deal with feeling like this anymore.