Tears are forming in my eyes, so I have come to this lovely community for answers and support. I have had an episode of severe health anxiety several months ago. It was horrible- I was constantly pulled down. After getting a clean MRI and seeing multiple doctors, I was finally able to move on and enjoy my life.
So a few months later, I am back in school doing my usual thing and being happy. However, in the past two weeks, I have been having these episodes of bad feelings and fear come out of no where. Once I was dusting a shelf and I suddenly got very dizzy and out of breath, feeling like I was going to pass out. And then the past two days, I have been feelings out of breath. I also caught myself having a dormant breath pattern... like I forgot to breathe. I went to lunch with friends, worried that this may be the start of something like anxiety, or a change in my brain from something abnormal... and how either way it'll be something I'd deal with my whole life. I was listening to my friends conversations with my mind away from the thoughts... when suddenly a HUGE wave of mixed emotion came over me. It was like a dark cloud of depression/anger/nervousness that was present for about 10 seconds. It just seemed so manic-like, and abnormal. I have this deep, certain feeling that something is wrong with my brain.
Getting back to my dorm room- worried, I googled it. I found from several educational articles out that stress can cause seizures! I know that seizures can be fatal and cause brain damage. I am so worried
I thought all would be good with a clear MRI. Even if this is anxiety- what a horrible DISEASE to have and what a weight to be pulled down on. And now I don't know if I'm having panic attacks or seizures. Either way- stressing about it can cause a seizure.
Its a beautiful day. I feel like I'm going crazy, just want to be like my old self. Please if you would be so kind to share your thoughts, I would be very grateful.