It's been quite a while since I've been on here. Thought I had my anxiety under control but it recently just backfired in my face.
I am in a real panic right now. Let me preface this situation. So for close to a year after having my son, I would drink about 3 beers every night. Usually they were MGD 64 (so roughly half the alcohol content of a "regular" beer). Nonetheless, I drank every night for 11 months. I stopped a little over three months ago in mid-June. In April, seemingly overnight, I noticed two burst capillaries on either of my cheeks. One is more of just a pinpoint mark, the other is very noticeable- not something that I could overlook. This really freaked me out. A while after I quit drinking I worried that I had caused damage to my liver and googled (bad I know). And lo and behold, broken capillaries on the face can be indicative of alcohol abuse and/or liver problems. So now I am totally freaked out to the point where I'm in tears and checking my face multiple times every day. I also feel like lately my right side where my liver is is "heavier" than my left side and sticks out more when I suck in my stomach. I haven't had pain there though.
I also wanted to add that I have had increased scalp hair loss for about 5 months now, a decrease in libido over the past year with a sharp decrease in the past two months, extreme fatigue, and just overall not feeling well. The past few months when I wake up my face will be red and blotchy sometimes, and it tends to wax and wane throughout the day. It kind of looks like acne but I know it isn't...so no idea what that is from. I had a copper IUD for three months from April-July but got it removed because I feared maybe it was contributing to my problems somehow. My depression and anxiety are worse than they have been in months. I know those are pretty vague symptoms but worth adding I figured.
I am far too scared to go to a doc for fear of what they might find, and yet I'm paralyzed by fear of not knowing what's wrong with me. Interesting paradox. This past week I feel totally debilitated by my fears.
If anyone could offer any words of comfort they would be so appreciated.