hello there. well, it is a bit of a struggle to even write about myself here, anonymously, on a computer - so i guess that gives an idea of how "present" my anxiety can be. i have suffered from social phobia, major depression and avoidant personality disorder since very young, maybe around age 10. over the past several years of my adulthood, agoraphobia and panic episodes have grown more severe and something i live with constantly now. i've had some treatment off and on, as i could afford or access it, but my situation has only become worse.
the avoidance aspect of anxiety is a really bad struggle because there is always the desire to have and maintain good friendships and relationships, yet the extreme fear(s) that never fails to come in the way of things somehow. i recently told a therapist i started seeing that if there was a such thing as a "fear of everything," that would describe my daily life lol. i guess this is my attempt to "plug-in" to some sort of community of those who can relate without the fear of being judged such as in the "real world" outside where i am pretty much non-existent.
a bit more about me: i love art/design, crafting, cooking/baking, animals, ironically travel (when i can get myself to do it), the beach, music, movies, books, games and the list goes on.
nice to join here. :)