Hi everyone, I've been a lurker and finally decided to sign up! Here's just a little bit about my HA.
I will never forget thinking I had breast cancer from the age of like 12-26. Yes even after exams.. lol.. I couldn't get passed it.. I finally did.
Last year my brother was killed in a car accident, 3 months later my grandma who basically raised me passed away, and then this year in Jan. my child hood friend died of Leukemia just months after she was diagnosed.
My health anxiety has been through the roof.. it's just one thing after another..
Then I have the symptoms of my anxiety, I've went through everything possible.. such as, bladder cancer, ovarian cancer, colon cancer, breast cancer (years ago) and now I'm onto throat cancer..
After being in the clear of all the things I had self diagnosed myself with... something new always comes and its ALWAYS MORE REAL THAN EVER!
I thought I was getting better.. then it comes back full force..
I am CONSTANTLY feeling as there is a "lump" in my throat... I think I have messed with it so much that I made it sore... when I swallow my right ear pops..
I had a massage the other day and the therapist told me my neck was one of the stiffest she's ever felt. Geez... I feel like I'm always clenching.
It isn't hard to swallow food or drinks... in fact I feel much better when I'm eating and drinking.
It's really freaking me out because its almost CONSTANT. it's been this way for months. I keep telling myself its just my anxiety. I'm prescribed xanax which i take for emergency and it seems to be the only thing that ever helps and relieves my "lump"
It's like I get over some illness and then SOMETHING new always comes up.. I try to tell myself this is just my anxiety, but I am always terrified in the back of my head. Does anyone else have this throat thing going on?? what do you do for it? Mine is constant.. then when I start worrying about it I feel like it will NEVER go away!! Sometimes I feel like it's going to drive me INSANE. I have an appt tuesday with a new psychologist. This is depressing me so much.
I've always been a worrier but after all the deaths in my family I feel like this may NEVER end.. its ruining my life. I know my boyfriend is getting so sick of it.
One other thing I will mention is my neck is tight and I feel the lump EVEN when I'm not anxious.. ?? I think that's what scares me the most... Some days the lump isn't bad at all then other days I am close to driving myself to the ER!!
Ugh! I would love to hear from others with a similar issue.. I need some peace of mind.. Thanks for reading my ramble :)